Monday, August 10, 2009 5:42 AM
on my mind. . .
it's about time I got this " blogspot " I have so much on my mind
it'd be nice if I could finally say what's on my mind. . . =)
k, so pretty much lately my family & boyfriend have been hella CRAZY
enough shit goin' on, my Dad's a idiot always tryna make me hate my sis
" ONLY CUZ SHE'S MY HALF SiSTER " I don't care if she's my " half
sister " I still love her, and i'll always. just because she's not your daughter
doesn't mean you have to be such a ass to her! you seriously ruined her
world. . I know Mom started ignoin' her because of you, all she ever had
were grandma & grampa. .
all I have to say is, no one's ever gonna make us hate each other. . she's
always been there for me, even when you and mom didn't wanna believe me.
cuz I " drink & get high everyday " uhh wtf? are you serious? you always just wanna
cause problems in the family.. too make it even worse. You pretty much are inlove
with Anthony, always askin' where he is, and what he's doin'. . OBViOUSLY he's at
work? but noooooo. You're so scared he's gonna fall in love with someone else cuz I'm
not skinny right? well sorry I had a kid, you still think I'm gonna be skinny after I had
that? I didn't think so. . it's so sad how you think my OWN SiSTERS GONNA TAKE MY
BOYFRiEND AWAY. I know a lot of bad people have walked into my life, but it's lame
how my own bialogical dad doesn't believe my boyfriend loves me. . .
sorry no one heres a idiot like you are, or even dirty minded.
because of all this stress, all I ever did was yell at Anthony when he came back from
work, well no shit I felt bad! atm; I didn't even know why I was so pissed off.. and why
I was even yellin' at him, I got to the point were we couldn't even be in the same room
with out fightin' with eachother, I threatened him over and over that I was gonna leave.
but did I? of course not. . . I can't see myself without him. I know " wtf " right?. .
I remember fightin' and just outta no where " it's over! " I seriously felt my heart drop. .
I balled my eyes out, it was about 4 in the mornin' everybody in the house was awake,
asked me why I was upset. . all I said was " nothin' I'm fine. . " I couldn't even stand
to look at him after that, I know he didn't mean it. It just hurt so much hearin' that with
my own ears. .
We promised one another that we'd change, everything would be different. .
and has that worked so far? actually. . it has :) we're better than ever. I guess
people are right when they say " when you fight, it only makes your relationship
stronger than ever "